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| Thursday, November 30th, 2006 | | 3:26 am |
My Slick Bitch (Her)
My Bitch Betty (Betty is his sub name) surprised me last night with more smooth skin than I expected. He's been talking for some time about shaving his body, asking me if I would be pleased to see him shave off all his hair, feminizing himself. I definitely appreciate the gesture. A smooth chest really turns me on. And I think a Brazilian wax is in his near future. But what I didn't expect was what I got last night without even asking...completely smooth legs. All the way down to his toes. At first I wasn't sure what to think of it. And I was upset that he did it without asking. But after rubbing against his smooth skin I've really come around to the feeling. I don't think he realizes the amount of work it takes to stay smooth. But he better get used to the idea if he wants to be my bitch. I don't like stubble. Current Mood: mischievous | | Wednesday, November 1st, 2006 | | 10:52 pm |
Becoming Her Bitch (him)
Yes, one more post for today... About 2 weeks ago, my owner decided it was time to further develop my position as her bitch and show me what it means to be humbled and humiliated before her gorgeous body. She started by stripping me down totally naked except for my bitch collar. She then ordered me into the shower, standing in the center with my hands on the wall. I soon realised her plan as she picked up the razor and started to shave all of the hair off my chest and back, leaving me bare and feeling vulnerable and somehow more naked than I was. She explained to me that if I was going to be her personal bitch, I should look like one. This is to become my new reality, with instructions to maintain the shaving at all times. I know better than to disobey, so I am now shaving myself every morning in the shower. My slick hairless skin does feel feminine to the touch. I actually love the feeling as is slides against her as I service her. I know she enjoys the sensation as well. The only downside to this new way of life for me is that sooner or later I am goong to have to go shirtless in public and others will know what a bitch I am. I actually am almost turned on looking at my own smooth nipples - almost like a woman's. I have totally accepted my position at her bitch and yearn for more... I am ready for it - bring it on! | | 10:38 pm |
Financial Control Deepens (him)
I am sitting at the airport right now waiting to get home to see my owner and my mind is still spinning from what she has done while I was away. For some time we have had the understanding that she owns everything, including my body and all of my former posessions. She really drove this point home yesterday when she discovered that I had emptied my wallet out on my living room table before leaving town. My point in emptying it was to thin out my wallet - I only kept one credit card and one ATM card with me. After discovering the rest of my credit cards and various membership cards sitting out on the table, she decided to take ownership of them and took them home with her. She also told me on the phone that she would be assuming possesion of a few things in my apartment that she likes, including a full length mirror in me bedroom and a few lamps. Finally, she got into my office desk and took all of my checkbooks. Looks like I will be goong on an allowance soon. As she told me all this, I sat on a different timezone. I was entirely helpless to stop her, and I loved it! I can't wait to see her and find out what other changes she will be making in our lives! I know I am headed down a path of no return. A path of slavery and a path of submission. I feel like the luckiest man in the world to be owned by my domme girlfriend and I love her more each day! | | Wednesday, October 11th, 2006 | | 3:55 am |
Dream? Fantasy? Reality? (him)
This morning my girlfriend told me about a dream she had last night involving me and a mutual female a friend of ours. Her dream was that they both humiliated and feminized me, something I have fantasized about as well. She didn’t give me a great deal of detail, but it was definitely exciting to hear that she actually thought about it. For the record, if my owner ever does point our mutual friend to this posting, I do have fantasies of being used and humiliated in front of others, including her. She’s seen the spanking hand and ball gag that we own, and I’m sure has drawn some conclusions of her own about it. | | Sunday, October 8th, 2006 | | 3:15 pm |
She Enjoys Thicker Cock (him)
Two nights ago, my owner wanted to try the strapon out in a new way. She had me take the largest dildo we have (photo in our Flickr profile) and fuck her with it. Immediately after I put it on she remarked on the significant difference in size. It was substantially bigger than me, and I could see the eager look in her eyes as she practically pulled it into her. We started out in missionary position with me thrusting in and out of her with my full weight. I quickly noticed that the thicker cock was going all the way inside her, something she's not usually able to accommodate. At the time I made a note in the back of my mind that this new ability to handle the size could be an indication that she's actually been fucking bigger men, something she has every right to do. I'd also noted that she seemed unusually wet occasionally lately, something that could be evidence that she's getting fucked well during the day or just after work. But I digress... After fucking her in missionary for awhile, she assumes her usual position on top of me, straddling the monster cock and sliding all the way down on it. From this vantage point I could easily see it spreading her out and sliding deep inside her. I could see that she was stretching out around it and her moans and facial expressions let me know how much she enjoyed it. As she ground into me, my useless little dick rubbed against her ass, flailing around outside of her as the thicker cock filled her in ways I can only dream of. She was off in neverland as she rocked back and forth, feeling it thrashing around inside her body. Eventually she climaxed and slumped on top of me into a pile of satisfaction. After some begging on my part, she agreed to allow me thae rare opportunity to enter her and cum inside a condom while inside her. I quickly came and we both rolled over, spend and exhausted. I can't wait to please her again! | | Thursday, October 5th, 2006 | | 7:10 am |
Sexual Release Restricted (him)
Two nights ago, she asked me to stop by the sex shop and pick out a strapon to bring home. I did as she asked, examining each and nervously looking around at the other couples as they shopped around me. I knew they probably weren't watching what I was doing, but I still was nervous that they would see me buying a strapon that was clearly to be used to fuck me wtih. I finally picked the right one and went to the counter to buy it. Of course a girl was at the register and I sat there handing her my credit card, knowing that she was aware of my sissification to come. I'm sure they get alot of people buying things and it's no big deal, but that doesn't stop me from getting nervous about it anyway. After a trip home I showed the toy to my girlfriend, who immediately wanted to introduce me to my new sex life. She put the toy aside at first and started with straight sex on top, like always. She strictly instructed me to move, don't move, put my hands on her ass, and finally just to shut up as she came all over me, using me as no more than a live sex doll. After she got her satisfaction, it was time to train me how to get mine. Soon she had put on the strapon and was demanding that I bend over the bed. She lubed me up and slowly she entered me, pushing the cock in and out of my ass like an expert. As we proceeded I ended up flat on my stomach while she introduced me to life as a bitch, getting my pussy fucked with her new hard cock. After awhile she started to explain to me that this is now the only position I am allowed to cum, with her inside my pussy, fucking me. I am allowed to grind into the bed, or to use my hand to help, but I am only allowed to cum while I am filled with dick. Amazing. I love you babe - I love being owned. Current Mood: intimidated | | Thursday, September 28th, 2006 | | 6:48 pm |
Bitch Collar (her) I needed a couple of items for my apartment yesterday. My boyfriend lives close by, so I requested he deliver to my doorstep. To add a little adventure, I told him to wear his black leather BITCH collar - and to make sure people could see it. He arrived with an embarrassed but pleased smile on his face. I asked him if anyone noticed the collar and he said several people were on the streets, walking the sidewalks, so he walked up the other side. But it still gave him a rush. And a major hard on. That was fun ;) I wonder how far I can take this control. | | Wednesday, September 27th, 2006 | | 7:31 pm |
Introductions (him)
So here it is! The first post to this journal. I'm putting this together at the request of my girlfriend and owner, to log my journey into total servitude and slavery to Her. We are still fairly early on in our journey, but she's already started to take control and enjoy herself. Here's where we stand right now: Cum Control
I am not allowed to cum wihtout her permission. Before she started to control this, I masturbated alot. Now I have to ask permission to cum, so it's become much less frequent. She's failrly generous with allowing me to jack off from time to time, but I often ask and am denied, depending on my recent behavior. I also must ask permission before cumming during sex. This ensures that she gets satisfied fully before I do and that she remains happy. Financial Control
I am required to serve as an open bank for her to use as needed. So far, this just means that she has assigned a couple of her monthly bills to me. They now come directly to me and she never even has to see them. As we progress, I will be assuming all of her financial responsibilities so that she is free to use her money on herself as she pleases. Domestic Service
I have started to serve as her domestic servant, assuming all cleaning duties for her house, doing her laundry for her, and running her errands. This will continue to expand as we move forward. This is just a small taste of the lifestyle we have entered into, and she and I both will be posting more followups to give more detail and report progress. |
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